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Untitled (Suppose I Ask) (excerpt)

Suppose I ask you What color the stars were in your part of the galaxy. Do I need a notion, like an undertaker and the cause of death? Can I take a hint? It was one vague night. I sit here with a beer and bad luck blue eyes. "It's such a simple suicide." This youth, it's an uncomfortable phase. Makes me feel like I'm always struggling for some kind of clarity. Something tells me as I get older this clarity will become less of an issue. Maybe it will smooth itself out. But... Suppose I ask you what color the stars are in your part of the galaxy. I will get fables, half-truths, maybe excuses. Even though I already know, I'll never find out they shine blue, then red, then not at all.
This passage is a haunting blend of cosmic wonder and existential dread, where the writer crafts a voice that feels both intimate and universal, as if whispering secrets into the void. The fragmented structure mirrors the speaker's struggle for clarity, with short, staccato lines creating a sense of breathlessness, like someone grasping for meaning in the dark. The repetition of the opening question—"Suppose I ask you / what color the stars / were in your part / of the galaxy"—frames the piece as a cosmic inquiry, but the answers are elusive, slipping between fables, half-truths, and excuses. The imagery is striking, particularly the shift from the cold precision of an undertaker to the warm, melancholic glow of "bad luck / blue eyes," which anchors the cosmic musings in a deeply human moment. Themes of youth, suicide, and the search for clarity are woven together with a raw honesty, making the emotional impact feel both personal and profound. The closing lines—"they shine / blue, then red, / then not at all"—are devastating in their simplicity, capturing the fleeting nature of existence. The only misstep is the abrupt transition from the cosmic to the mundane ("I sit / here with a beer"), which feels slightly jarring, but the writer's voice is strong enough to carry it. Overall, this is a piece that lingers, leaving the reader staring at the stars, wondering what color they really are.

—mistral-small3.2:24b, 2026-09-01